Oh, darlin', don't you ever grow up...

            Yes, yes. Scold me for not coming back sooner. Really, I blame it on college. However, it was more me procrastinating than anything else. When we left off certain dramas had happened, I was about to go off for liberal college X and life was just being interesting to me. However, about four months have passed and in college, four months is a life time (or, really, just a semester). Chinese, Philosophy, Art History and Geology. Good God. I didn't know what I was getting myself into. 

         Of course, my severe procrastination and undiagnosed ADD don't help. Much less the WiFi accessible campus with its beautiful trees and amazing scenery. A girl cannot concentrate on the likes of Kant and Gao Laoshi (one of three Chinese teachers -the one that hates me.) if there is so many other things to explore! And, trust me, I haven't lacked in the adventure department. I'll keep hush on those but know that I've tried to behave like the normal college girl I am and that sometimes lends itself to some drunken insanities (e.g. laying on a road in 24ºC weather à la "The Notebook" with oncoming traffic on both sides). Although it's not all about the booze or the parties. Just getting on a bus and getting lost can be the most rewarding experience.

             And so, college has taught me a lot of things. It has taught me that I'm NOT a philosopher (no matter how hard I try). It has taught me that I can be a decent actress (hellz yeah, I was in my first play!). It has taught me that I am kind of OK in the "living pseudo-alone" arena and that I'm a lot less fearful than I thought. I've challenged myself and failed and aced and realized I just want to keep trying. I'm just

 beginning to discover and figure out who I am. I'm going to break rules and follow them and just be who I am supposed to be.

Even in the dead of winter.

Have you ever seen snow fall all around you? 

It's one of the most peaceful experiences you can take part in. 

So, I'm changing. Like the leaves that changed and showed me the most beautiful Fall I've ever seen.

Sometimes I wish I knew what the future held but the not knowing, the tripping up and getting up and starting all over again seems so worth it.

And so I leave you with three little pieces of advice:

Don't plan things!

Go with the flow.

Let the world surprise you.

...and you'll find yourself in the process.

Song of the moment: "When the Saints Go Marching In" -Louis Armstrong